I always feel this constant emptiness and I can never seem to pinpoint exactly what it is. Maybe it’s close friends or happiness in all or just being able to feel like things are never going to change. I feel this deep emptiness that I’m doing things wrong and I need to go around things in a better way. I’m trying but sometimes that’s not even good enough. I don’t know where life is going to take me and that scares me. Things are rapidly changing and I don’t know how I feel about it all. I want to go back to when I didn’t care about anything. Things were so much easier. I can’t help but care now I just do. I’m scared to let go of things because I love them absolutely love them. I feel alone most of the time. I don’t know how to deal with it. It just sucks knowing that you don’t really have any close friends but acquaintances. That’s all just people who know your name and say hi to you. Surface based relationship.